Where I Am...

...I wanted to write this post for me. For the last year, I've been pretty down about myself...looks, weight, infertility. In my mind, I was a fat, ugly girl who couldn't do ANYTHING RIGHT. Lately, I've noticed some changes in me and I wanted to call them out.

I've lost weight. I don't know how much. I had a rough idea when I started but I don't weigh every week, I weigh when I want to. I'm not obsessing about stepping on the scale. I have noticed that quite a few of my pants are baggy and that makes me FEEL GREAT! I still have a VERY long ways to go but I can tell I've made progress and I'm happy with that.

I'm watching what I put in my mouth and counting every calorie. I'm just hoping this doesn't becoming an obsession but instead a tool for a healthier life style. I've also noticed that my face has cleared up probably because I'm not drinking as much soda or eating as much sugary crap. I am VERY happy with that.

This might be TMI, so stop reading this paragraph if you don't want to read about being nude. I've noticed lately that I'm okay with being naked. Now don't think I go standing around naked in front of the mirror-ew! But I used to take a shower, get out, do a quick towel dry and put on my pjs. Now, I'm not so quick to do that and if my pants are drying in dryer downstairs, I'll walk down there pantless to get them (whereas before I'd have on my pj bottoms). This is major headway for me.

I actually don't mind getting my picture taken, case and point:

LOL-I'm such a nerd! For the past year, I can probably count how many pictures where taken of me on my two hands. I've even tagged myself in a few photos on Facebook! I really love taking pictures, I feel like it's making memories so its nice to have some memories made of myself too. Now don't go take my picture every 5 minutes though!

Now, don't get me wrong, I'm not 100% happy with where I am and I'm not done getting to where I want to be. Hopefully this is just a starting point of a healthy lifestyle that will STICK. While I've lost weight and feel good about it, I know my BMI is still high and I would like for it to be in a healthier range for personal and health reasons. I haven't gone shopping so the whole feeling cute thing, well, it's eh-I make due but I feel better about myself because my face is clearer and my hips are thinner.

So anyways, that's where I am now but hopefully I'll be going somewhere even better. Beating my time from the Met and feeling better physically after it was a GREAT confidence booster to keep on doing what I'm doing.