Wednesday, January 5, 2011

My Break...

...well, people, I'm back and I owe you an explanation. Remember this post back on Thanksgiving? I know I said I wouldn't talk about infertility here and our treatments and everything but if you can't tell, it effects my every day life! December was an exciting month for Matt and I as we went through our first IVF cycle. Unfortunately, 60+ shots later and three days before Christmas, we found out that it failed...our first two "babies" we "made" were gone. My heart was broken. For the first time in my life, I didn't know how to pick up the pieces and move forward.

I took the past couple weeks to try to figure it out. I won't lie and say it was easy, it was probably one of the hardest things I've ever had to deal with my entire life. Luckily, I have awesome friends and family that pulled me through. Matt and I are grieving together and putting together a game plan for where we go from here. Come on, people, you should know me well enough by now to know that I have to have to plan to move forward! My boss was very happy today when I showed her my 22 week half marathon training plan. She said it was a sign to her that I was moving forward.

I apologize for the abrupt departure but hopefully you understand and forgive me. I hope you all had a great Christmas and New Year's. This is the first Christmas in YEARS that I don't have ANY pictures! I'm working on making 2011 WAY BETTER than 2010!

11 comments :

Julie said...

I am truly sorry for your heartbreak. I have another friend of mine who has been going through the same IVF treatments as you for the past year and has not been successful either. They have been informed that their next step would be adoption but her husband is strongly against it at the current time so she's at a crossroads. I can only wish you both lots of love and determination as you continue forward and know that we're all here for you :)

Christy said...

I want to say I'm sorry for all you've been through but it sounds so flat... just know I'm thinking of you and am glad you're back to blogging.

Mrs. Dirnberger said...

Again I know there are NOT any words I can say to make you feel better! BUT I do know that God gives babies to deserving people and I dont' know of any other couple that deserves one more than you do :)
If you need me I am just a blog away.............

Jacklyn said...

I can't even imagine what that's like so I know I don't have the right words :( Just know that I'm thinking about you and praying for you guys and if there's anything I can do, let me know.

Meredith said...

I'm so sorry you guys are going through this. It's just not fair, and it sucks.

Teenage Bride said...

Hang in there dear. My mom went through several rounds of IVF and that's how me, my sister, and my brother were born!!

we just had a neighbor who went through three rounds and now haas twins.

I am praying for you!!

Adie said...

I am so sorry Alyssa!! You have been in my thoughts and prayers. I am happy to see you making a plan, you are so brave!!

Hilary Lane said...

I had a feeling it was something along those lines. So sorry for you guys. And I wish I could offer some words of wisdom! But I know how strong you are to keep truckin! If you need to chat, I'm here!

d.a.r. said...

Praying for you, sweet girl.

Stephany said...

What a tough time, Alyssa. I'm sorry you have to go through this because it's just so heartbreaking. I'm praying, sweet thing.

Alaina @ Three Ladies and a Dad said...

Praying for you Alyssa. Sending you love and hugs!