Saturday, July 18, 2009

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...I'm in a major funk. Hubs and I discussed it and I think I've been in this major funk for the past two years. I just don't know what to do to change it. Part of it is work right now because it's my busiest time of the year, but only 15 more days and then a break until next year. Another part of it I think is because Matt's lived here his whole life and I haven't. Therefore, he's established meaning he has friends to call and hang out, he's involved in organizations, he's got the in around town and then there's me. I have friends in STL...spread out though. I'm not really involved in anything. I've tried a couple of different avenues and nothings really kept my attention long enough. I've tried getting involved with the fair that he helps out with but aside from the dinner auction (which I'm really glad I helped with), they haven't taken me up on the offer. I have become friends with some of Matt's friends but so many of them are huge partiers. Now don't get me wrong, I have my party days in me, but I just don't like to go out and drink until I'm ridiculous and feel like crap the next day. So like last night, we went out with them and I didn't drink so then the whole night it's, "Why aren't you drinking? Are you mad?" and then all the other crap that comes with having to deal with drunken people.

I feel like I get up, go to work, come home, go to bed and start over. After the 15 days (because I have to be available until 6pm every night), I'm going to start working out...no gym membership because we're trying to save on dollars but I think when I get home from work, I'm going to grab a dog and just walk until I can't walk any more.

Sorry for the post...I'm just needed to vent. Anyone out there have any ideas how to get out of a two year funk?

5 comments :

Angie said...

Aw I'm sorry. It must be hard living here when alot of your friends don't, or are far away. During the week I feel like that too, I just work, clean, sleep, repeat.
And I'm totally with you on the partying thing. I don't really enjoy getting completely wasted anymore. I very rarely drink, if I do it's one or 2 drinks and that's it.
My only advice would be to keep an eye out for things going on in the community that interest you, call friends in advance to see if they wanna go, and put it on your calendar. I enjoy organizing things with my mother in law, like the botanical garden or zoo or things like that.
We need to organize another blogging night out!

Randall @ Happy For This Moment said...

Maybe not two years, but I know I've certainly have my share of "funk." I think the only way to get rid of it is to change it up. Doing the same things you've always done, the resulted in the funk, isn't going to work.

Like you said, go for a walk when you get home from work or try getting involved in different groups. Maybe if you keep going to various things you'll find something that clicks.

Hope you're feeling better soon.

My Own Ruby Slippers said...

I have definitely had my fair share of feeling in a "funk" as well. I'm glad you have your blog to vent on!! :) Sounds like you've made some great plans to help yourself soon!

Angie said...

I must be sharing your "funk" because I cried 3 times this week. My whole summer has been a funk, and for a teacher, this is usually the best time of the year (wink). But a part of me feels like I should be doing more - of what - I don't know, so that's why I started blogging, because writing has always been therapy for me, but even this hasn't helped because I haven't written a thing in over a week! I guess I can only say we need to hang in there - tomorrow is another day...

Cecilia said...

I'm so sorry! I know exactly how you feel. I still don't have a lot of friends around here, and I've lost contact with most of the ones I used to have. Thank goodness I have the kiddos to keep things busy for me. I'm here for ya if you need me!