Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Where I Am...

...I wanted to write this post for me. For the last year, I've been pretty down about myself...looks, weight, infertility. In my mind, I was a fat, ugly girl who couldn't do ANYTHING RIGHT. Lately, I've noticed some changes in me and I wanted to call them out.

I've lost weight. I don't know how much. I had a rough idea when I started but I don't weigh every week, I weigh when I want to. I'm not obsessing about stepping on the scale. I have noticed that quite a few of my pants are baggy and that makes me FEEL GREAT! I still have a VERY long ways to go but I can tell I've made progress and I'm happy with that.

I'm watching what I put in my mouth and counting every calorie. I'm just hoping this doesn't becoming an obsession but instead a tool for a healthier life style. I've also noticed that my face has cleared up probably because I'm not drinking as much soda or eating as much sugary crap. I am VERY happy with that.

This might be TMI, so stop reading this paragraph if you don't want to read about being nude. I've noticed lately that I'm okay with being naked. Now don't think I go standing around naked in front of the mirror-ew! But I used to take a shower, get out, do a quick towel dry and put on my pjs. Now, I'm not so quick to do that and if my pants are drying in dryer downstairs, I'll walk down there pantless to get them (whereas before I'd have on my pj bottoms). This is major headway for me.

I actually don't mind getting my picture taken, case and point:

LOL-I'm such a nerd! For the past year, I can probably count how many pictures where taken of me on my two hands. I've even tagged myself in a few photos on Facebook! I really love taking pictures, I feel like it's making memories so its nice to have some memories made of myself too. Now don't go take my picture every 5 minutes though!

Now, don't get me wrong, I'm not 100% happy with where I am and I'm not done getting to where I want to be. Hopefully this is just a starting point of a healthy lifestyle that will STICK. While I've lost weight and feel good about it, I know my BMI is still high and I would like for it to be in a healthier range for personal and health reasons. I haven't gone shopping so the whole feeling cute thing, well, it's eh-I make due but I feel better about myself because my face is clearer and my hips are thinner.

So anyways, that's where I am now but hopefully I'll be going somewhere even better. Beating my time from the Met and feeling better physically after it was a GREAT confidence booster to keep on doing what I'm doing.

15 comments :

Kristal said...

You look GREAT in that photo Alyssa!

Angie said...

I agree, that is a great photo of you! Your tummy looks totally flat! I am so happy to hear that you're feeling better about yourself. I hate when my friends are down. You are a beautiful person inside and out.

Mrs. Dirnberger said...

I am happy you are smiling a little more!!! You are BEAUTIFUL and do look great!!! I think you are amazing inside just as much as you are amazing outside :)

Teenage Bride said...

sooo proud of you! Congrats!

Adie said...

You look gorgeous! So proud of you, it is really nice to watch your journey and determination. I heart you BBFF, Your a ROCKSTAR!!

Julie said...

You are doing so awesome!! You've done the one thing many times I wish I have done and that's run in a race, maybe one day I'll get to that but for now I'll live vicariously though your awesome-ness! Keep it up girly, things can only go up from here!

Meredith said...

I love that picture of you Alyssa--you look strong and healthy, and HAPPY!

Shannon said...

Good for you!!!!

Shannon said...

Good for you!!!!

Stephany said...

You are awesome, Alyssa! I think it's great that you're just trying to lead a healthier lifestyle, not make it a crazy obsession of daily weigh-ins and all that. It can get exhausting! :)

Plus, you're in incredible shape. Anyone who can finish a marathon is someone healthy in my opinion!

Song Sparrow said...

That is a good picture of you. It looks like you hardly have weight to lose!

Krystie said...

Dude, you DID loose weight. Congrats! it's a huge battle but you're a rockstar, so I know you'll make it happen. :)

Cecilia said...

I have definitely noticed the changes not just the visual ones but your personality. You seem more confident and dare I say sassy! I am very proud of you. I know you can do this.

Faith said...

I noticed you looked thinner in the pictures you posted from the stair climb. Keep up the good work!

Angie said...

Oh this post SO hits home! Keep up the great work, you are def an inspiration to me!